The sun has set the girls have moved on.

 

But their memories will last for decades on.

 

As I look at the horizon I will always see your face.

 

And the time we have shared can never be replaced.

 

The arena will never be the same without your care.

 

And the silence will be hard to bare.

 

The lives you have touched will never be the same.

 

But in their hearts forever you will stay.

 

As a daughter, sister, granddaughter, and friend our love for you has no end.

 

 

My Grandpa's Advice

   I think back a few years to when I was a young gal, My Grandpa bought me a horse instead of a toy.
 And he taught me something when I got bucked down, not to lay there and whimper but get off the ground.
"Sweetheart," he'd say, " You'll never have very much pride, if you quit right now and don't finish the ride."
First he'd dust off my britches, then catch up my horse, He'd hand me the reins and start me back on my course.
I probably wouldn't be a ridin' horses today, if it weren't for those words my grandpa used to say.
They come back to me time and again, and I realize now, what I didn't see then.
He wasn't just talking about a horse that could buck, but about any problems that I might try to duck.
So when trouble springs up every once in awhile, I think of grandpa and I quietly smile.
I don't turn my back or run away to hide, I get up off the ground and I finish the ride.

The Perfect Guy

 


I was asked the question if I could have the perfect guy what would he look like, how would he act, and what his personality would be like. Well I thought about it and here goes nothing!! :)

                My guy would have to be at least in decent shape because that is important to me! He doesn't have to have the ultimate beach body! Im not really interested in that! Dark hair or light hair I don't care but it has to be short! I cannot stand guys with long hair if you want to have long hair you might as well be a girl! Eyes well I love blue and green but brown is ok too I guess ;) Hmmm my guys clothes can be jeans a t-shirt and boots and I would think that he is the best dressed guy! I mean granted when the time calls for it yes dress up but if its just for a date or something then the above is just perfect!! Alright enough about looks. Personality I would say he needs to have a sensitive side but not so sensitive he is just mushy all the time or clingy! He has to have somewhat of a sense of humor but also knows when to be serious. He is respectful of my boundries. He respects my family as I will respect his. He has to be somewhat smart! Is that too much to ask for!?!? If he commits to the relationship then stick with it! Is honest about how he feels about things just doesn't sit on the fence. These are the things that I look for in a guy and someday maybe my prince will come :)                  

My Life so far..... :)

Senior year had come and gone and then the real journey began. It has had its ups and downs but Im still here so I must have done something right!! I was reading through my posts on here and I read about how I was going to end up going to ISU and being close to home. Well that certainly didn't turn out the way I thought it would!! Now I am in Missouri which I never thought I would ever be. My journey has taught me alot of things. It started out me leaving home for the first time ever. I had never been away from my family for very long and at first I thought I could do it and I would be just fine but did I learn quick just how much I missed them. I left the world I knew on December 13th 2011. Little did I know how much my life was going to change. I started out of Butte Montana and took a plane to San Antonio Texas where I learned quickly that you just shut up and keep your head down. 8 1/2 weeks later I was an airmen in the United States Air Force. I felt a sense of accomplishment that will never go away. The hardest thing so far right then was getting to see my parents for 2 days and then having them leave again and not knowing how long it would be before I saw them again. Those couple days were the best ever and they were also the hardest. I then moved on to tech school in Witchta Falls Texas which is where Sheppard AFB is. Tech school was kind of a blur new friends and definetly a whole new outlook on life. I realized just how sheltered my life was back home. To see how people from big cities lived and how they acted amazed me. I was grateful that I grew up where I did but then I wasn't because I was lost alot on how things worked. Well tech school ended and I again moved. My next and last stop for now is Whiteman AFB in Missouri. This has been a very up and down place for me. I love the people and the base but it makes me feel alone at times. So far from family makes it hard. My mom always tells me that you eventually have to strike out on your own but I just wasn't prepared for this. I'm getting better at getting out and meeting new people and experiencing new things. This last year was nothing like I expected but it was also the best I could have hoped for I never would have in my life dreamed I would be in the military or even have left Idaho. My parents liked that I had decided on this path in my life and they support me throughout everything. Its hard not being able to hug them or to see them or share crazy experiences but when I do see them it just makes it so much better! :) So for now I am happy with what I am doing and who knows what the future might bring! :)

Darkness is falling on the mountains and the wind is dying down. You can hear the howling of the wolves. You try to judge how far away they are. The darkness is enveloping you. You feel the chill run down your spine as you try to contemplate what is out there. Every noise you hear makes you jump. Why did you have to go ahead of the group? While building a small fire you look around, watching, waiting, wondering. Suddenly you see a shadow....you hear the wolves howling and they seem to be getting closer. Nervously you start piling wood to make the fire bigger. You know that they will keep their distance if they see fire. All you have to do is survive the night and then you can start finding your way back. Your mind keeps telling you to sleep but your nerves know better and keep you awake. Its getting darker and darker... your mind gets the better of you after a couple of hours. When you wake up the fire is just coals. You have survived now you need to find your way back. Every twig that snaps gets your attention. Suddenly you hear something. It sounds like an engine. Up ahead you see your friends. They have come to get you. You tell the story and on the way down you look back to the forest. You wonder how many secrets it holds.

Spoon River

In our English class we have been reading a book called Spoon River Anthology. The man who wrote the book took a town and looked at all the graves and wrote a story for each person. Some of these stories are really funny and weird and plain confusing! Others are really sad because to think about what they went through the way he interpruts the story is really sad. There is one poem that I really liked. Her name was Mrs. Merritt. She was married to Tom Merritt, Mrs. Merritt had a secret though. She had a secret lover named Elmer Karr. One time Tom found Elmer sneaking out from behind the barn. When Tom went walking home Elmer shot him! The judge gave him 14 years, but the twist in the story is that Mrs. Merritt was blamed more for the murder and she got 30 years but she died in prison. Some of the stories in this book are full of twists and turns and some of the people are connected in some way. This is a really good book.

The lights and everyone saying how pretty you look in your dress. I had never done something like this and I didn't even know in the first place if I wanted to! My friends said that it would be a good oppurtunity to get out of my shell and my parents thought it would be fun! I decided I wanted to be in the Jr. Miss program. I had no clue what I was getting myself into. I had never worn a formal dress and I had never seen so much hairspray used on someone before. When I got to the first practice I expected to be taught how to walk like a model and how to wave and how to dance. Well we learned to walk later but what shocked me the most was that all we did was learn a simple dance. No hard stuff no whipping into shape or going on a diet sort of thing! I started to get really excited every Saturday! I liked it alot! After the hours of hard work and interview questions and finding just the right hair and makeup and dress etc..... I was ready. The night came and I was so nervous for my talent. When I went out there it was like I was the only one out there so I played like I was in my room. Nailed it!!! After we were all done with the program it was time for awards. I waited and waited and it was getting towards the end when I heard my name called! I was like what had I won? I had won the spirit award!! I was so happy and so was my family! I was glad I did it, it made me come out of my shell and be a little more crazy and outspoken. Im really glad that I did the Jr. Miss program.

What have cell-phones done to the kids of America? My coach said that we were more focused on our cell-phones then spending time getting to know everyone on the team. She said " you only get to talk to these people and get to really know them once in a lifetime." She told us we need to focus on getting ready for the game and interacting with each other. We have become so focused on our phones that we lose family time! Kids would rather talk to their friends on the phone then spend time with their families! I do text but when we go to a family reunion or we go on a day trip or vacation we have to turn our phones off and leave them at home! Do we really want to teach our kids to ignore everything and only communicate through texting? I love my cell-phone but I don't want to end up like some kids who would rather talk on the phone then spend time with their family!

Every night I think of you before I go to sleep. Why can't you see that I like you? I see you in class everyday talking to everyone and wishing you would talk to me. What do I have to do to get your attention? Do I have to dress all girly and wear my hair down everyday? We have lots in common for one we both do sports. But you never notice me or say good job or cheer for me its always for them. I try to talk to you but all you do is brush me off. Ya know what I don't want to change for you. Take me as I am or don't its your decision.

A new year, a fresh start! I thought that was going to be a good thing. I thought that hey Im in high school now throw those childish things away! I was going to reinvent my self and become a totally different person. That was my first thought.
Volleyball came around just before school started and I got on the C-team. School started and it was our first home game. Well we all got dressed up and spent the day being all excited and nervous at the same time. The time for the game came and I was ready first one in the locker room first one out!
I was ready to play. My wardrobe though was alittle on the slow side of things. I looked down at my shoes because I tie my shoes on the court, well I looked down and I had two different shoes on! I had just grabbed them out of my closet that morning before getting on the bus.
I was so happy though that I had a left and a right. So I played with two different shoes. One shoe would stick because it was my court shoes but the other slipped alot and so sometimes I would go after the ball and end up in the splits! My parents came up to me after and asked me if this was some kind of good luck charm or something and I said no it wasn't I was just in a hurry. Now everyone makes jokes about it and remind me no matter what sport to always look at what shoes Im grabbing!

My Bucket List

Traveling to Every State! I've already conquered the West!

Travel to Europe

Finish a whole Ben and Jerry's Ice-cream by myself!

Wear the goofy clothes that all the models wear and actually go out in public with them on!

Have more than one job

Run at least 5 miles

Read at least a thousand books

Have 2 kids

Teach history for more than 11 years

These Boots

There are many kinds of boots.

Each one tells a story

They are all different

From the horse poo on the bottom

to the scuffs on the toes

You can tell alot about the person by what their boots look like.

My dads look worn down from years of use

They have scuff marks on them

They have oil and grease and dust on them

I can tell that he works hard and has for a long time

Everybodys boots have a story tell.

J- Jolly

E- Exquisite

N- Natural

N- Neat

I- Irresistable

F- Flirty

E- Energetic

R- Revolutionary

These 8 letters describe who I am as a person. I don't always stay true to them but I try. I am happy almost all of the time and if someone is having a bad day then I try to make them feel better. I think that I look beautiful and if someone thinks different then they can have there opinion. I don't wear alot of make up and during the summer I don't wear any at all. I like to keep things neat. Like I said it doesn't always happen but I try. Haha this one I can't really explain but I guess someday I will find out why I am irrisitable! Haha I guess I really don't know how to flirt really! (That's what my sis says) but I just talk and laugh. I can be very energetic some days. I don't know what it is but some days I just can't sit still if it would save my life! I think outside the box and try to come up with new ways to solve problems.

I had always known what I wanted to do with my life. I wanted to go to school at ISU and teach History. I knew from when I was a Freshman that I wanted to get all the scholarships I could and go to college and learn alot and do awsome things when I became a teacher. When we started to look at colleges this year everything changed. I was looking at U of I and C of I. They were really great colleges but the only problem was my parents. They don't want me to go to U of I because it is too far away. C of I is a really expensive school so I don't know about that either. I did my junior interview last week and of course my mom says ISU all the way because its close to home, my grandma and dad went there and of course its a great school. I tried to look at different colleges but I guess its ISU. I am going to a tour for it in May and hopefully I will still like it the way I liked it for all these years. Wish me luck with the parents because I don't know how it will go.

This song says alot about my life and it makes sense to me because soon I will be going off to college and my parents want to move to shelley to be closer to my sister and I so I want to come back and see what my house became. I think that this has a good meaning and moral and alot of it talkes about things that happened in my life.

I know they say you can't go home again, I just had to come back one last time, Ma'am I know you don't know me from Adam, but these hand prints on the front steps are mine.

Up those stairs in that little back bedroom, Is where I did my homework and I learned to play guitar, I bet you didn't know under that live oak, My favorite dog is buried in the yard.

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it, This brokeness might start healing, Out here its like I'm someone else, I thought maybe I could find myself, I f I could just come in I swear I'll leave, won't take nothin but a memory, from the house that built me.

Mama cut out pictures of houses for years, from Better Homes and Gardens magazine, plans were drawn and concrete poured, nail by nail and board by board, daddy gave life to mamas dream.

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it, this brokeness might start healing, out here its like Im someone else, I thought maybe I could find myself, if I could just come in I swear I'll leave, won't take nothin but a memory, from the house that built me.

You leave home and you move on and do the best you can, I got lost in this old world and forgot who I am.

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it, this brokeness in me might start healing, out here its like Im someone else, I thought maybe I could find myself, if I could just come in I swear I'll leave, won't take nothin but a memory from the house that built me.

The worst day of my life

The summer before 5th grade. I was so excited because I was almost into Jr. High. I was going to have the best summer ever. Or so I thought! My parents told my sister and I that we would go on the annual camping trip with my dad's work. Great I love going camping because we get to ride 4-wheelers and go on hikes. So the time for the camping trip came and I was so excited that I couldn't sleep. We left after school and got up to the spot we wanted to camp in. It was awsome sitting around the fire and talking and roasting marshmallows and not having to go to sleep really early! Halfway through the next day my sister and I and some of the other kids there decided to have a race on our peddle bikes. We went on the road and made sure there was no one on the road then we went up to the top of the road which had kind of a slope to it. I went first against this kid named Nick. We started going down the road and I was picking up speed. I went to slow down and I found out that my brakes weren't working! I thought ok I can just use my feet. I was going too fast though, so I went and turned into an opening that I thought might be grassy and would slow me down but when I turned into it I found that there was only a big boulder and I hit it head on. My bike flipped and so did I but the sproket on my bike went into my leg and went to the bone and when I came down I hit my head on the boulder. My sister came running down and found me she ran back to camp and told everyone and one of my dads friends came on his 4-wheeler and picked me up. The closest hospital was in Salmon 1hr. and 30min. away. So I rode in the back of the pickup with a diaper on my leg. When we got to the hospital the doctor said that I had to get stiches . This was my first time ever in a hospital. I was freaking out and when they went to give me the IV I wouldn't go to sleep. I had to get two adult doses to take me down. I had to get 30 stiches in my leg. When I got back to camp everyone wanted to see it and told me how brave I was! The only bad thing was is that I had to stay at camp the whole rest of the trip because he told me that I couldn't be on my leg alot so I couldn't go on the 4-wheelers. I couldn't do anything. This was why it was the worst day and I said that I would never go to the hospital again unless I really need to!

What to do on a rainy day?

Go to town

Read a book

spend time with the family

Watch that movie you just got from netflix!

You could even go outside in the rain!

I remember I used to go outside and find all the puddles and jump through them!

There are a million possibilites for a rainy day!

SOFTBALL

Blood

Sweat

Tears

Pop Flies

Grounders

Line Drives

Single

Double

Triple

HOME RUN!!!

Mits

Batting gloves

Helmets

Bats

New softballs

Coaches

Cleates

Uniforms

Cold Days

Dirt

Mouse holes

Backstops

What more could a girl ask for!

Quotes to live by:

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game!

We are all travelers in this world from the sweet grass to the packing house. Birth till death. We travel between the eternities. Broken Trail

Don't be afraid to go after what you want to do, and what you want to be. But don't be afraid to be willing to pay the price. Lane Frost

What makes a friend?

Someone who is loyal

always has your back

Tells a secret when they need to but keeps it when they don't

Does stupid things just because you want to

May not be the brightest but is always funny

Will fight with anyone who wants to hurt you

Friends are always there for you no matter what! :]

Peace is Blue

It feels like the cool wind on a spring day

It smells like the rain

It tastes like ice water

It sounds like the chirping of the birds

It looks like the mountain lake that is undisturbed

MY DAILY ROUTINE

Ok so most think my routine is pretty simple and repetitive but if ya look real close you will see its anything but!

Get up at around 7

Get ready for school in about 20 min

Drive 15 min to school everyday

I talk to my friends in the hall and say hi to Holly at the office

Go to Mrs. Scotts for English

Head to Breakfast break to talk to friends and somethimes I have FFA stuff to do

Go to second hour and play my flute like there is no tomorrow! :]

Then after that is over I go to third hour and listen to the sad stories of the Holocaust. WHY!!!!

Then its my other favorite hour.....LUNCH!

Then its off to Mrs. Scotts again for the second time in one day and I get to be creative this time! :]

The last and final class of the day Coach Sawiki's Environmental Science!

But..........am I done...... not quite yet.

I still have softball practice

and on any given day of the week something could pop up like my sisters play practice or my mom and dad are still in town so we have to fend for ourselves and find something to eat!

Yeah my life can be pretty hectic.......yep but I gotta do what I gotta do!

My list of things I like to eat!

Spagetti

Ice Cream

Hot dogs

Watermelon

Bannana Peppers

Subway Sandwiches

Pickles

Bacon

Fries

Apple Pie

Scones

Sunflower seeds

Homemade Salsa

Wow I like alot!

This was a crazy day! Breanna and I had gone up to Challis to watch our siblings run X- country. We were having fun just goofing off with everyone just waiting for them to run. Breanna and I walked the course with everyone. We were walking and suddenly Breanna wasn't next to me! I was like where did that girl go? So then I turned around to go find her and there she was on the ground! I was like what happend? She had caught her foot on a branch and fell. We were both laughing so hard and then this kid from Challis came up to us and just randomly started talking to us! He was so funny, Breanna and I just kept walking and finally we came to the end of the trail. We watched my sister and all the other high school people run and then we watched breanna's brother run in the middle school race. We had so much fun and we did some really funny and dumb things!

My little cousin Baeley and I after Jr. Miss! What a little cutie! :]

Wow I have never used a blog before! This is kinda cool except Im kinda on the slow part of things! Haha I like this!